a list

I’ve never had one of those “things to do before I die” lists, but I think it’s time I come up with some stuff. A friend of mine was saying that someday, when she’s talking to her kids about her life before them, before marriage, she doesn’t want to say she spent all that time waiting around, she wants to be able to say she had an amazing, full life and have stories to tell them. That’s one reason I want to make a list, but also just because I can. For so long I thought I’d always be limited by the illness. Or maybe that’s a cop-out, I’m more limited by my fears than I ever was by the illness. I was so paralyzed with fear I didn’t even let myself dream about doing things. So to strategically conquer my fears, I’ll work on this list. I’m going to say at least 10 things to do. I want to figure out what adventures I want out of life so I can get on the ball and start seeking them out. And I think at least 5 things should be stuff I can do here or within a day trip’s distance. 2008 will be my year of adventures! Or at least of dreaming about them. It’s a start?

~ by Jennifer on January 9, 2008.